I'm back to freaking out about school and thinking I'll never graduate again. Bawwwwwwww!



I was going to write a bit more, but it's gone now. Let's start a discussion! Ask me some junk y'all. Let's make this interactive!

The older I get, the idea of being domestic becomes more like a fetish, and less like a concept of wholesome living.

I am afraid that at the breakneck pace that Blueberry operates at, when I get back from Texas in 3 weeks everything will be too different for me to comprehend and understand, and I'll be left in the dust.

I guess I'll have to go back to cultivating a real life again.

Boo. Missing you already and you're not even gone, how's that for melodrama.

To the person who:

• pulled my phone number off the Whois on my website and is continually harassing me by phone and text since 1:04PM this afternoon
• tried to get into my AIM account

THIS ISN'T COMMUNIST RUSSIA, THIS IS THE GODDAMN USA. I WILL STAN WHOEVER THE FUCK I PLEASE.
ADDITIONALLY, I WILL FUCKING CURBSTOMP YOUR ASS IF I FIND OUT WHO YOU ARE.

Thank you, and go die in a fire now.

Thank you, I think I will.

My life now revolves around making cock therapy jokes.

Eli Roth, you have ruined me.

I'm having a slight academic crisis and I'm going to vent so if you don't want to read it you don't have to, but some advice and input might be nice, kind readers, all two of you.

If I'm correct, I'm finally graduating with a B.A. in Multimedia Arts & Sciences in December of this year. After that, I've got some wide open plans that leave me with a sense of complete panic.

The plan that seems most logical and has parental support would be to go to graduate school and pick up a graduate degree in something. This sounds like a good idea, despite my wretched GPA, but my interests are far and wide, and despite my intense thinking on the subject for the past 6 months, I cannot decide what I want to narrow my field of study into. It has gone from Art Restoration to Art Curatorship, to Museum Studies to Library Science, to a degree in Visual and Media Anthropology. Looking at the requirements and standards of education for any of the degrees is a bit daunting, and I'm already getting a small suspicion that I'm not graduate school material.

While I've been told time and time again that jumping into graduate school immediately after having completed your undergrad is a pretty terrible idea, it's a way for me to avoid the "real world" for at least two more years, and I like the sound of that.

But we've looped back to the "I have no idea what I want to study" line.

My next option that I've been kicking around for a few weeks now is to just drop everything when I graduate in December and high-tail it to New Zealand on a 6-month Holiday Work Visa, and work on apple orchards and vineyards, and extend my Visa while I'm out there another 6 months to round out my stay to a year. While I'm out in New Zealand, I would get a year-long Holiday Work Visa for Australia, and once I'm done in the great green wilds of NZ, I would go to Oz and work for a year, and while there, extend my visa for another whole year. Perhaps in my 3 years abroad I would be able to figure something out, and go from there.

Blagh.

I am in the lab working on learning some Processing and I feel mostly like crap and I'm listening to really droney space music which is adding to the disconnected sensation I'm feeling all over.

It would be nice to curl up in a warm cloud somewhere in another plane and be sung to sleep by the universe.

(int)(random(x));

Example as to why I'd like Universal Healthcare, or affordable healthcare, or something better than catastrophic insurance or nothing at all:

To get a refill on generic Adderall (for basic everyday function) and a mild generic antibiotic (I get chronic UTI's like whoa, and my acne is incredibly painful) it cost me around $150 today. That is about half my rent, and I don't have a job right now. This is on top of the $76 I had to pay to see my doctor so I could go "hey I need a refill thx".

So Mr. Doctor Mans, I will not be coming in next month for a blood panel to see if my liver is functioning correctly. I figure the alcohol keeps it greased and working.

Jesus Christ.

As far as things go, it is all pretty okay.

hi.

D'aww I feel so full of love. And sushi. And sake. <3!
In other news, I leave for Washington D.C. Friday morning at 4AM. I will be up in D.C. until July 4.

I have been doing a lot of things! But no time to post them now.

I love you guys!

hi livejournal, i'm still alive

anything you wanna ask me about?

When I am more coherent:

A raccoon broke in the house twice tonight, and not just the house, but my BEDROOM, and he will not be doing it anymore because that sonofabitch is riddled with .22 bullets from my .22 rifle. The last few shots being directly to the head.

Oh my godddd!

Oh right I forgot Sunday morning really early I leave for Washington D.C. to be a chaperone for a group of high school kids. We're going to see Obama's inauguration and go to an inaugural ball and see museums and junk.

I will be posting photos and things on some websites that are local, I will let you guys know the addresses so you can get a first-hand look at.. what millions of people look like from the stance of one of your friends. Go technology!

Also today is the first day of school and it snowed a little bit and I need more classes.

Home from Portland, update may or may not follow.

In less than 24 hours I'll be landing in Portland.

keep a look out for this face, you might see it downtown or something.

Just don't want y'all to forget about me or anything. Sniff. It might be a while before I'm out there again!

See you all soooooooon! <3<3<3

Thing​s I want to do on Jan. 7-​12:​

In Portl​and:​
• drink​ copio​us amoun​ts of Red Rum
• eat at Umino​ke,​ enjoy​ sushi​,​ do sake bombs​
• eat at Blue Nile,​ cry from spicy​ Ethio​pian food
• eat at littl​e Chine​se veget​arian​ place​ on Couch​ St., cry into sprin​g rolls​ becau​se they are so delic​ious
• eat at McMen​namin​'​s,​ delig​ht in local​ beer & burge​rs
• go to Beula​h,​ nerd out with MSL
• go to Groun​d Kontr​ol,​ play video​ games​,​ drink​ beer
• go to Backs​pace,​ drink​ coffe​e
• go to the Greek​,​ drink​ beer,​ dance​
• go to Döner Haus in Vancouver, eat Döner Kebab

Beach​ Trip:​
• go to Pacif​ic Unive​rsity​,​ see my old schoo​l,​ cry becau​se I dropp​ed out
• go to the Guide​ Shop on Hwy 8, eat Salmo​n & Mario​nberr​y Cobbl​er
• go to Tilla​mook,​ get chees​e curd,​ Tilla​mook Mario​nberr​y Cobbl​er Ice Cream​
• go to Moe'​s in Canno​n Beach​,​ eat some Slum Mulli​gan
• go to Twin Rocks​,​ remin​isce

Hang out with:​
MSL, Nessa​,​ Olive​r,​ Kaebe​l,​ Kirk,​ David​,​ Carle​en,​ Karen​,​ Krist​en,​ Charl​es,​ Brad,​ Nick,​ Dave,​ Scrap​py,​ Dr. Jeff & Sister Mary Eris, Brie? Cody?​ Sonyo​?​ Sarah​?​ Krist​en2?​ Kevin​?​ other​ peopl​e?​?​

Where​ else shoul​d I go, what else shoul​d I do? Do we still​ Zoo Bomb?​ Do we still​ go to strip​ clubs​?​ Do we still​ party​?​

LOVES​!​

Huuuuuugs and Kissssses everyone!

<3

To whom this may concern;

I WILL BE IN MOTHERFUKKIN' PORTLAND ON JANUARY 7 AT 11AM.

Prepare yourselves. I would love to see you all.

<3<3<3